Words

by Addie Pray

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Words is about twelve months spent sleeping and generally being awake.

Album art by Sean Mullins

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released July 26, 2012

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Addie Pray Philadelphia, Pennsylvania

Addie Pray is Carmen Perry.
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Track Name: When Morning Comes
Winter turns to spring and I get tired
But I never wanted to fall asleep on you
Night turns into day and I lie awake
Anticipation and vain determination

I’ve been waiting for you for far too long

And every time you go I feel a pain
You walk out that door, leave my heart on the floor
And it feels like this is happening the same
I can’t speak for myself when the words feel like hell because

I’ve been waiting for you for far too long
And I’m always wishing you good luck when you’re gone
And I keep trying to fit in with you where I don’t belong

And I have dreams of how I wish you were
You put your arm around me and tell me that you’re happy
So until then I won’t tell you what’s wrong
I’ll be fine tomorrow but for tonight please don’t go

I’ve been waiting for you for far too long
And I’m always wishing you good luck when you’re gone
And I keep trying to fit in with you where I don’t belong

My heart’s sinking, you’ve been drinking, my tears will be dry when morning comes
My heart’s sinking, you’ve been drinking, I can close my eyes when morning comes
Track Name: Get Bummed Out
Waking up just to say your goodbyes
Feign composure but I know you lied
I know you try so hard, so so hard

Now I’m biting my nails and you’re biting your tongue
I’m cracking my bones cuz of what I’ve done
Do I make you nervous, as nervous as you make me?

If I breathe too close to you
Can I count on you to just make up your mind?

Steady heartbeat for once in my life
I’m moving my feet so I can try
To get over you before you’re even mine

Hoping you’ll call so that I can ignore
You were confusing but I can take care of myself
I just wish sometimes that I didn’t always have to

If I move away from you
Would you miss me the way that I miss you?
So get more blue and I won’t talk to you
Cuz it’ll hurt too badly when you let me down

And I’ve been tired
I’ve been waking up alone
And I drive around this stupid town
Building you up in my mind
And I get bummed out

Cuz I feel asleep on all your bad dreams
I’m in love with how you make me feel like I’m not so alone
But I can go if you feel like giving up
Just make a mess of me, I’ll always clean it up
Track Name: Sleep Talker
I watch the words fall out of your mouth
As it’s been two hours and you still can’t tell me
And our winter bones are growing stronger
Every time you answer questions in circles

You won’t say what you’ve been thinking
But you tell me in glances and handwritten letters

And I’m reluctant to believe you
As the sky outside is a familiar shade of pink
Cuz while you were sleeping I felt your heart beating
So I laid my head down and tried not to think about not waking up in your arms

You won’t say what you’ve been thinking
But you tell me in glances and handwritten letters

And after everything just closing my eyes
Makes me feel better than you ever could
So with your morning broken and your heart ripped wide open
You’ll look back on winter and you’ll think about me, and how I woke up in your arms

And how
You wouldn’t say what you were thinking
But you told me in glances and handwritten letters
And I heard you talk in your sleep

I can’t read you
I can’t see you
And I’m afraid that this isn’t over
Track Name: Wearing Thin
Night becomes our frail anticipation of a Saturday’s pursuits
And as the snow falls on a Sunday you and I fall into routines we’ve construed
And with each change of pace I hide from you

And on the precipice of patience I half-heartedly accept your hesitance
And I tell myself that I will never let you in my head like this again
Then I accidentally fell asleep in your bed

The air is cold but our backs are warm as we race to forget about the past
So if it makes you happy we can both leave this dumb party with someone else
But I’m hoping you won’t bring her home tonight

So we’ll keep on pretending we’re content with this uncertainty we choose
And I’ll judge your new girlfriend on the content of her heart and on her shoes
Well I think that my thick skin is wearing thin

Endless spaces, stranger places, faces we don’t recognize
We’ll sleep by ourselves tonight and dream about our passive lies
Track Name: My Fickle Friend
You and your friends can stay the night
And I don’t mind if you crash with me
To have someone’s arms to wake up in
I open my eyes then fall back asleep

I’m just looking for someone to be straight with me

The smell of cheap beer and eager boys
Clouds the hallway and I can’t breathe
And I slept with my back turned so you wouldn’t see
Before you wake up I’m gonna leave

But when I wake up you’re looking at me
Track Name: You're So Sorry
Falling down again, I guess my knees are weak
You laugh at me til we can’t speak
We both come around but it’s always too late
For these fragile things to tessellate

My heart, my heart, my heart, my heart
Your heart, your heart, your heart, your heart
These empty promises will fade
We’re both so sorry everyday

And now in my indifference I recognize
My salty words, your tired eyes
Perpetually drifting to the heart of things
But we just dance around them and pine for spring

You fall asleep right next to me
I laugh it off, don’t make you leave
You lied to me but I’m alright
Turn out the lights and say goodnight

And I’ve thought about how different everything would be
It’s not worth it to get so attached to me
And I was too afraid that all of this would end
But I love you now
I loved you then

My heart, my heart, my heart, my heart
Your heart, your heart, your heart, your heart
Hold back these words we mean to say
We’re both so sorry everyday
Track Name: Regression
Telephone wires dripping from heavy sound
I’m alone again but I think that is how I like it
And someone’s radio voice keeps ringing in my head tonight
This strange regression, I collapse into my bed at night

In maps and photographs I have something to hold on to
I don’t wanna talk to you now, so I’ll never leave my bedroom
Cuz it hurts to remember the weekends we spent before
But now I am jaded and these memories can’t hurt me anymore

Countless Sundays drive past your house, windows down, stereo loud
Hoping you’ll see me, hear me, I’m a stalker but I am not proud
Cuz it’s easier for me to languish than to open up my mouth
I won’t tell you how I feel so my stillness weirds you out

Streets I used to recognize look more like road maps when I go
I’m too tired to run into somebody I used to know
Maybe I’ll see you later if I ever change my mind
But you won’t call and I won’t answer, it’s what happens every time

And I feel different now, more different than I ever felt back then
But I still paralyze myself so I guess high school never ends
So for now I’ll just lay here and never open my eyes
This strange regression, I collapse into my bed at night
Track Name: On Standing Still
Settle down, sleep will find you soon
Dance around your disappearing wounds
Crawl into the headspace that you create
Recklessly abandon a heart so full of hate

And when you get there, is it any clearer?
Yeah, when you get there you’re not any nearer

And you’re so tough, you don’t even like yourself
Thriving off of pain caused by someone else
Fatalistic warnings from your bad dreams
Dauntless apprehension from your father’s genes

And when you get there, is it any clearer?
Yeah, when you get there you’re not any nearer

And you’re so funny, that nobody laughs
Ripping at the seams now they’re all staring at
That you can’t seem to dismiss from your angry heart
Pressed between the longings when it falls apart

And when you get there, is it any clearer?
Yeah, when you get there you’re not any nearer

And you’re so sad, you can’t even fix yourself
You’re always wishing you were somewhere else
And you’re so clumsy, that not even you can see
You’re delusionally prone to idealize the scene

And when you get there, is it any clearer?
Yeah, when you get there you’re not any nearer

Settle down, sleep will find you soon
Track Name: Death of a Sock
Miss you
Miss you less and less with each day that goes by
Cuz I don’t call and I don’t hear from you
I don’t miss you quite enough to make the same mistakes I made this endless year

Falling
Falling out of love with the idea of you
And everything I hoped that you would be
Relentless memories of sanctity that I’ve been trying to shake

Now everything reminds me of you
Eternally shitty point of view
Cross things out cuz I’m too tired to care

That I was just something for you
To aimlessly look forward to
I had myself convinced I needed you

But still
Still so many things I wouldn’t change about you
The way you laugh, the way you say goodbye
Sitting on the edge of my bed, our shoulders always side by side

And I wished
I wished that things could have worked out that time
And the time before, and the time before that too
But now I think we’re just too similar and I wasted so much time on you

Now everything reminds me of you
Let me down easy, words misconstrued
And I let myself believe you every time

Cuz I remember everything
That night you said you liked my rings
A million thoughts that never cross your mind
And you fucked up but it’s my fault
What I asked was too difficult
I’m sorry I made you feel so much pressure

Waiting
Waiting for my heavy heart to unload
September feels like it was years ago
But the distance between us is making this so much easier

Thinking
Thinking about you and your quiet smile
Nostalgia gets the best of me sometimes
Then reality sets in and I remember what you did so many times before

Now everything reminds me of you
Aggressive lengths I always go to
Disgustingly predictable I am

Cuz I wasted all my words on you
You were too scared to tell the truth
You’ll probably go on like nothing happened
So I’ll beat this dead cat one last time
We’ll never really say goodbye
But I won’t be there the next time you change your mind

And oh, I’m doing fine
Track Name: Words
Hands are nervous moving up and down your chest, you take a deep breath in
I lose my senses one by one
And in the morning, sunlight falls across my shoulders, your head next to mine
We wake up to a fuzzy scene

Well I’m starting to think that maybe this is something
Or maybe I’ll lose my balance and I’ll fall

Uncertain glances shooting back and forth my bedroom, backs against the wall
Recalling every time before
Now mouths are open spewing words across the floor but thoughts don’t seem to form
I’m running out of things to say

And all the words that we save for whispers in the morning
And all the energy under blankets of midnight

Hopes are high as we both wait in line for something we have never known
And I think by now it’s my turn
So in Ohio, I will bide my time until your reason or your rhyme
Becomes as clear as it can be

Well I’m starting to feel you aren’t who you used to be
And I’m hoping you see that I am different too

And I’m trying my best not to be so forward with you, you take it from here
And anxiousness sets in too close
Cuz I have written words and words for you, words that I will never say to you
And you’ve been sucking up all of my thoughts

Well I’m starting to think that maybe it’s not worth it
To articulate every good thing that comes my way
We’re okay